It has taken me a long time to come back around to post this update regarding our journey with the hosting the boys. It was pretty short lived. I ended up experiencing a lot of anxiety and intuitive feelings about them not being able to come, which led to me having horrible dreams about being in the middle of war riddled Ukraine trying to find them and not being able to get to them. We kept moving forward and paid the money for the deposit deadline ($1000/child), days after that I just could not continue to suppress the horrible feeling that they were not going to be able to come and so we forfeited the deposits and backed out of hosting. We fully refunded everyone who was extremely kind and donated (thank you!!). Another sweet family stepped up and finished coming up with the additional funds that were needed to host the both of them together, unfortunately they were not able to be hosted at all. We were heartbroken to hear this news, but was glad that I trusted my intuition and was able to reconcile on our own terms and not face the disappointment like the other family had to endure. Overall it was an exhilarating experience to be apart of if only minimally.
We ultimately decided to move forward with our first round of fertility treatment which was not successful, however we are not discouraged and have sought a second opinion into my medical situation to be better prepared for the next round of treatment. We are also preparing to begin the process of becoming licensed foster parents! We are definitely excited about the potential for our future family. I will do my best to maintain the blog to journal our experience through the process.
Here are a couple of pics from our honeymoon (an Alaskan cruise!) in May 2014 and a work trip that Mike was able to travel along with me so we had a mini honeymoon to Florida in June.
